If you were a guy, what kind of girl would you go for?

A bimbo/ flower vase who either prefers not to use her capabilities or is completely incompetent, but pleases you to the maximum, both physically or emotionally; a maybe good-looking / ordinary looking girl who strives her best in everything she chose to do but might sometimes overlook your needs; or a maybe good-looking / ordinary looking girl who is just being herself and not your typical next-door girl, but she gives you her all?

I realise, guys commonly prefer the first type of girl as their girlfriend.

Whether it's for show off, or a kind of MCP thing, a pretty girl, whatever her flaws, as long as she throws a little tantrum, pouts her lips, talks and laughs in a soft tone, is considered cute, innocent and sweet.

No, I'm definitely not that kind of girl. I'll probably fall into the latter categories as a very, very, very ordinary girl.

Sometimes, it feels disheartening to know that guys prefer such girls, especially in those you care a lot.

While I regard some guys as friends, I could tell they don't feel the same way towards me. To them, I am just a shrewish individual who just can't behave like a feminine woman who likes to throw sweet little tantrums, pouts my lips, talks and laughs in a soft tone.

Well, as I have previously mentioned in my posts, this world is never fair.

No matter how much you try your best in everything you do, no matter how much friendship and love you give to people you care, they just don't appreciate it, 'cause you are not their dream girl.

Well, on the other hand, just because I feel upset about such a fact doesn't compel me to want to change to fit into this superficial society.

I am not innocent, graceful and beautiful. I am not gentle, caring and sweet. I am not feminine enough.

Yes, I know all that.

But I always try to give every single person I care my very best love and concern. Take it or leave it. This is just me.